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Everyone now, they look back and they're like, "What happened to your sweet image that you used to be?" And I'm like, then when you came out you thought I was too provocative. It's like you can never win. No matter what you do, at the end of the day you can't please everybody, you know. I'm not here to please...

You know, I have such an appreciation for where I am in my life because I've struggled and because I couldn't get signed, and because I couldn't get played … There are times when it can be a lot to deal with but always when I get up in the morning I try to find that very joyful place that reminds me that I would die if someone took it all away. If someone did that I wouldn't be a person anymore.

I think with anybody who’s doing well in the public eye or whatever, there’s always gonna be a shift because people don’t wanna see somebody happy all the time. And they’re gonna try to take shots at you. People are mean, they try to tumble you down. They love to see you cry and mourn. I guess people are really born to be jealous and threat.

Something is happening to me.

Recently, something weird is started to haunt me. Im talking about showering. Since im off duty, im free to do whatever i want. And i still got one month of sem-break tho. Because of that, it has been a real hard for me to sleep early. Not to mention i went out and went home at 2 or 3am and sometimes not even went home. haha.

The weird this is, ive started to continuously taking the habit of showering in the middle of the night. Yes, at 2 or 3 am. Even when i stayed home the whole day, its really hard for me to sleep before 2 or 3am and i must shower first before go to bed. Some people think less shower is better and some think middle-night shower is crazy but what happen to me is the opposite. Just like now,  its 2.42am and im posting this article right after i took my weird-middle-night shower.